who am i

i wonder how i appear to others. to my family, my teachers, friends, classmates, strangers?
sometimes i feel im very dull person. lack creativity to lighten up conversations.

i have been a failure to myself countless times. weak willed. someone straighten my back! argh!

am i missing out on my faith? my belief is not able to hold its own for too long before crumbling? self confidence not even able to reassure myself? have i grown a mask and lost myself? ARGH!